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( Mar. 15th, 2009 11:01 pm)
Watching Patrick play resident evil 5 on playstation 3 is so hilarious. He's on bluetooth playing with his friend Brandon co-op. So he's talking to Brandon on bluetooth and I see him peeking around a corner and then hear:

Patrick: "Huh? What the fuck is Oh shit? OH SHIT WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?! Awww fuck I'm dead."

They gave these motherfuckin' zombies GUNS in this resident evil. SNIPER ZOMBIES, imagine that.

Patrick goes back to work tomorrow, he was on paid time off + bereavement leave for his grandma. I'll have the xbox to myself to play, he played most of this week while I helped his mom with funeral stuff. Patrick's birthday is this coming Tuesday, St. Patrick's day. I don't think he'll feel up to celebrating, but I'll get him a card and maybe take him something to work unexpected. Don't think he'll be feeling up to celebrating much.

Gary ( my brother) wants to give me money to buy Halo Wars. I dunno how that will turn out, I have never been good at fps ( first person shooter ) I'm willing to give it a go though, if for anything comedic value at how fuckin terrible I'll be haha. We'll see, would be cool if I can actually get good and pwn some people. Seems the only fighting game I've been decent at is Tekken, but Tekken 6 doesn't come out till November or something I think.

I was nautious as fuck today. It's gotten to the point where when I am talking and I say the word Oxaliplatin I immediately feel physically ill and have to pull my mind away from chemo or I just might barf.
It was like 50 degrees and rainy here today. When I went outside, breathing in the cold air made my chest feel all tingly and fucked up. I also felt like that at the funeral on Saturday, the cold effects of that stuff have really been bothering me these past 2 days. Last week was so nice and it was starting to actually get hot again. I can't wait till these cold fronts leave and we can get back to Spring weather.

This is all for now.
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( Mar. 15th, 2009 12:37 pm)
The funeral went ok, It was beautiful and the funeral director kept everything going in a smooth fashion so there were no weird pauses or anything at the service. One of Erma's sisters in a wheelchair likes to make scenes, they only let her pass by the casket once and the whole family threw death glares so she wouldn't fall out all "OH HELP ME JESUS" kind of way.

It was really cold and raining yesterday. I didn't get out at the burial site I had a huge wave of nausea come over me. Also because of the cold ( it was like 45 degrees outside ) my legs and arms and feet were tingling like crazy cuz of the Oxaliplatin stuff. Me and Patrick didn't feel like going to the gathering afterwards and I wasn't feeling well so we ducked out and came home. Patrick doesn't like being around alot of people, and I wasn't in the mood to meet a bunch of family and shake hands.

I read my tribute to her, and Patrick got up and spoke finally, after many "get your ass up now" kind of glances from me. He was sitting with the paul bearers so I didnt get to sit by him in the service. It was good though, cuz he sat by his brother who definitely wouldn't have made it through the service without Patrick talking to him.

So we made it through the hardest part. Now we just let time heal our hearts.
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( Mar. 14th, 2009 05:38 am)
I woke up at 3:45 and couldn't go back to sleep. I may try to go now for an hour. Today is the funeral for Patrick's Grandma. I wrote something to read at the funeral, I hope I can keep composed enough to do so.

Been playing alot of xbox and talking with my brother. Its fun. I did miss him alot and I am glad I am getting to talk with him more.

My HR department sent me a letter and said that my leave of absence has been denied because they haven't received medical records. I looked on the portal and no case for leave of absence is there but last month I checked and there was a case there and it said it was approved till April 1st for formal medical leave of absence. I am upset. And I can't do anything about it till Monday because HR will be closed. If my leave of absence from FEBRUARY was fuckin denied why am I only hearing about it in the middle of fuckin march and why did the site say I was approved. Fuckin' assholes. I just mailed off a money order to pay for February/March insurance, this better not fuck with my insurance when I go for chemo next week or I will be livid as hell. I plan to call them early Monday morning and have them fax the paperwork to my doctor so I can get everything straightend out by Tuesday. Ugh I'm just getting pissed off even more I am gonna lay down for another hour.
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( Mar. 9th, 2009 05:33 pm)
Patrick's grandma passed away around 3pm today. I am heartbroken, but for some reason the tears just won't flow like they do on everyone else. I remained calm after Regena told me, Patrick pretty much the same. I guess I understand that she lived a very long life and it was just her time although we were not ready for her to go.

This morning Patrick could not get anyone at work and he was trying to call in but they were not answering or he couldn't get the right people. Me, Regena, Patrick's brother Chris, and Brittane went up to the hospital. Patrick went to work to try to talk to some people. We left the house close to 10 am.

I got up there and she was hooked to all kinds of machines of course. The stroke she had effected half her brain and the doctors said there was nothing they could do for her because of where she had the stroke at. I stroked her hair and talked to her. I told her Patrick was going to come see her, that he was at work. I told her be ready to see him later that evening.

When we left the hospital around noon Patrick called me and told me that they let him off work. We told him be ready to go as soon as he got home so he could go up to the hospital and see her. Since everyone had seen her already I went in with Patrick to see her. I offered Regena to go in with him, but she told me to go ahead. Patrick kissed her forehead and talked to her and we both cried. I talked to her and told her she was the best grandma I'd ever had. I made Patrick speak to her so she would know he was there.

We left the hospital probably around 2pm, maybe 2:30. I came home and collapsed into bed I was nauseated and exhausted with a headache. Regena asked me and Patrick to go into the livingroom around 4 and told us that she had passed. Me and Patrick were the last ones to see her. I am thankful she held on for him so he got to tell her goodbye.

Heaven has gained a beautiful angel, if anyone is worthy of eternal rest and peace, it is that woman.

RIP Erma Jean Rodney.
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( Mar. 8th, 2009 11:00 pm)
Patrick's grandpa called, his grandma just had a stroke about an hour and a half ago. They took her to one hospital, she is unresponsive, they are taking her to a second hospital where a team of neurosurgeons are waiting to see her. They said its not looking very good. Regena broke down crying and Patrick is trying to hold himself together. I am praying, please send good thoughts. Need them so much right now. ;.;
Well those of you who have been with me in journals for awhile know I have a funny little brother named Gary and while we have enjoyed our laughs and good times, for awhile before I left El Paso my little brother was driving me completely crazy doing his growing up and acting a douchebag thing. Most of his money was earmarked for booze while my mother and I scrambled and did whatever we could to keep food in the house and bills paid.

Since I have left El Paso, my mom is better off since she turned 60 and started getting my dad's death benefits and my stepfather's social security benefits. Gary also realized what a dumbass he had been. He gives my mom money every week, and has a very good paying job which allows him to spoil my mother. He has become alot more generous with both of us than he had been in the past. He gave me like 400$ to help with my wedding last year, and he has helped my mom pay for her plane tickets out here to see me. He has bought her 2 or 3 genuine coach purses and a huge plasma screen tv for her to watch. He also buys her dvd's to watch, takes her out to eat often and takes her to the movies at random. After I left I guess my brother had time to reflect on how I took care of my mom and him alot of the time.

Last night he called me out of the blue and we started talking about everything and anything. I love to talk to my brother, I usually wait for him to call me though because he is so busy and I want to make sure he actually wants to and has time to talk. He said he was going to give my mom 400$ to help me with bills or whatever and that I could continue to ask him for money as I needed it. I told him I didn't WANT the money but it doesn't mean that I couldn't use it. I told him I just wanted him to give me 100 so I can pay the insurance this month ( the 70$ every 2 weeks to my employer till I get fired). I told him I hated to have to even ask for money, that I was used to being independent and don't like to owe or beg. He said I shouldn't even think of it that way, that he is my brother and he is happy to do it. He still doesn't have insurance. I am sad. I want him to get checked out and I told him this. Good news my genetic test results came back and I don't have lynch syndrome. (( Side note: Hereditary nonpolyposis colorectal cancer (HNPCC), also known as Lynch syndrome, is characterised by a risk of colorectal cancer and other cancers of the endometrium, ovary, stomach, small intestine, hepatobiliary tract, upper urinary tract, brain, and skin. HNPCC is subdivided into Lynch Syndrome I (familial colon cancer) and Lynch Syndrome II (other cancer of the gastrointestinal system or the reproductive system). The increased risk for these cancers is due to inherited mutations that degrade the self-repair capability of DNA. ((source wikipedia)) )
So this means that I don't have the gene that makes it hardwired that I got it from family, I just got unlucky and I don't have a hardset gene that would pass this down to my kids, thank god. I have to talk to the doctor about it more when I see him next, but it feels like damn good news to me. I am only left wondering why I got it so early if it wasnt a genetic defect but I'll save my questions for the doctor.
Maybe my brother stands a good chance of not having it since it wasn't passed down through lynch syndrome. I pray that is the case, I don't want him to deal with cancer even in the slightest.

So yeah, Gary was like "I am gonna have mom put 400$ in the bank for you tomorrow". We started talking about video games and all this stuff...and then he was like "you know what, I'll give you 400$ next week, take the 400$ from the bank tomorrow and go buy an xbox 360" I was like "..."
He wants us to be able to play video games together, cuz Patrick has a PS3, but Gary doesn't. So he wants me to go buy an xbox and street fighter 4 with the money. I went around with him, telling him he didn't need to buy me a damn xbox, he said "yeah I know I don't but this is what I want to do ok? Then we can talk more." I guess it will also give Patrick a chance to play with Gary online, they've only met twice and haven't gotten a chance to really bond so I am hoping that they will become close friends playing online together. I don't have to say Patrick is over the moon about this and I was like "just you remember its MY xbox and not yours!" haha, he's like "WHOSE TV YOU GONNA PLAY IT ON" I said "OURS" haha.
My mom just called me to tell me she put the money in the bank, I have to go to the bank to do some banking crap and then when Patrick gets off work we'll go get the xbox. I hope we don't get a ring of death one pfft. Anyways I'll be happy to be playing against my brother video games once again.
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( Mar. 4th, 2009 07:55 am)
Anyone familiar with the dgate boards ( a community forum for a role playing game I played a few years back ) knows that the political debates on those boards can make you wanna kill some people and can get very heated. I usually try to stay out of them, but this guy Joel started a thread asking people if they'd changed their minds about what they thought of Obama now that he passed this stimulus package. He went on to say pretty much in his words that Obama is the devil, we're going to hell in a handbasket, and keeps posting black and white pictures from the great depression. Now if you read my journal from a few years ago, I was very much hurting for money, couldn't find a job, and was selling plasma to maintain stable. We are in a bad economy right now, but all this end of the world great depression talk makes me laugh. That stimulus package that passed probably does have alot of pork in it, I won't even deny it. All I know is that government is gonna help me pay the outrageous Cobra insurance this year and that's good enough for someone with Cancer. Instead of writing a long drawn out story about how I was struggling to get by even before all this economy shit went down, writing about how shitty the healthcare system is, I decided I would just make fun of the endless black and white sad pics he was posting. I found just the pic on good ol pundintkitchen

Welfare Relief Crowd
see more Political Pictures

I'm terrible, I know. Hey, I have chosen between paying the light bill or buying food before. I have gone to bed hungry. I'm greatful for what I have, and I think its really a low blow to put up pictures of the great depression and yell at people to call their congress people before its too late. One person told him he needs to go lobby himself and stop trying to get everyone else to.

I really don't like politics much because its so hard for people not to take it personal and remain civil when discussing them. I like to throw in the jokes to try to keep the mood from crushing everyone.
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Well we have the new guinea pig in the house, I would just ask her what makes her happy so that we'll know.

Alot of you on my friend's list have pets, I'm very curious and hope you'll take the time to answer this question in your journal, I'd like to know what you'd like to ask your pets hehehe.
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( Mar. 1st, 2009 10:58 pm)
I have been trying to find recipes for lasagna and ziti from scratch and looking at the ingrediants to see which one I think would come out the best. Patrick was out and about this afternoon and brought me some lunch but before then I was starving but he said he would soon be home. I made me a simple piece of toast with some butter and apple jelly. You forget how good the simple stuff is, or maybe I was just really hungry. I had a good lunch, but now for dinner I have 4 pieces of toast with apple jelly cuz I was craving it again lol. I am the type to eat the hell out of something for awhile and then not have it for awhile and come back to it. This toast is awesome though. I love the apple jelly by the brand name Bama.

To quote my favorite comic Mitch,

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( Feb. 28th, 2009 08:38 pm)
No luck at the casino, but I think I rushed myself since I was only there for a few hours. Patrick made me cash out when I was up, I think I should have kept playing. I went back to play after we ate and then I lost lol. My machine was hot! I got to 175 from like 40 bucks, and then I left down 90 haha. Oh well. I will play slower next time and not try to rush, but its so fun max betting and getting a bonus game or something. I had alot of fun and ate at their buffet, it was so yummy.

Coming back home on the bus I drank a dr pepper right after I got on the bus, and I got soooo nauseated and by then I had finished the dr pepper and had nothing to take my nausea meds with. I am lucky that I didn't barf. I ate a peppermint candy and it made me feel better. Peppermints are awesome. The cancer center I go to has a big basket on the reception desk with baggies full of peppermints and it has a lil card in it that says "Courage is Fear that has said it's Prayers" and on the other side it says "With God all things are possible - Matthew 19:26" I've always told you guys peppermint is amazing for an upset tummy, and today my peppermints saved me from barfing hehe.

I'm tired out.
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( Feb. 27th, 2009 09:57 pm)
They have casino buses that go from houston to louisiana where you pay 20$ to go on the bus and when you get off the bus they give you a 15$ play voucher. I think this is awesome. Tomorrow is Patrick's mom's birthday so we are going to a casino called Couchata or something. I am excited.

I wanted to punch Brittane in the face this evening. Her dumbass way of thinking and stupid ass shit she says makes me want to hurt her. I went with Patrick to gamestop, and then picked up some food so I could get out of the house because I was so gonna punch her face in. Brittane cant go on the casino bus because she's not 21. While Regena was contacting Brittane's friend's mother to see if Brittane could stay with her tomorrow, she couldn't be reached and things were looking bad. Regena told Brittane she might have to go stay with her Grandparents for the day. "No, i'm not going, that's so not an option."

Brittane likes to act any kind of way and do what she wants, so she said no to going to her grandparents house. Then she was making up excuses why we shouldn't go to the casino and of all things she was like "gambling is a sin, you all don't need to be going"
I was like "yeah, well, stealing is a sin too."

Regena cut in before Brittane could say anything else, but I was fuming and left with Patrick at that point. When I got back to the house, watched an episode of Deadwood and ate my alfredo, I went in to Regena's room to check and Brittane is going over to her friend's house tonight and will stay all day tomorrow, thank GOD. I was praying about it in the car, I can't stand that girl and was livid about her ruining a trip on her own mother's birthday.

In other news I had chemotherapy Thursday and it was pretty good. They had a bunch of bagels juice and muffins for breakfast, I had some blueberry ones and some apple juice. For lunch they had Boston Market roast beef sandwiches. I got home and started having hot flashes from the Oxaliplatin. I was gonna buy a drumstick icecream to eat today, the moment I touched it in the freezer bin my hand felt so cold and electric. I guess the more I have the Oxaliplatin I am gonna have those damn cold side effects. Oh well, it should wear off in like 2-3 more days. I felt like HELL thursday night. I was sweating and clammy and light headed and nautious. It takes me like 24 hours after taking the Oxaliplatin to feel better. It fucks me up and my body just tries to sweat it out of my system.

Brittane just left for her friend's house. I took 2 melatonin to help me sleep since I am going so early. I have to wake up at 5 to get ready so I can get patrick up at 5:30 and then patrick's brother will have to get ready and we'll be outta the house by 6:45, probably get there at 7-7:15, bus starts loading up at 7:45 and leaves at 8, we'll get there around 11 probably and then the bus will leave at 4pm to be back in Houston by 7:30 pm

Wish me luck at the casino eh?

PS - I bought Patrick's mom a guinea pig for her birthday. It is ADORABLE. She liked the name Chenoa, since I have often told Regena about my best friend and how she passed away and everything. So the guinea is named Chenoa. Sunday if I can remember I'll take some pics and post em, she's so adorable.
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( Feb. 27th, 2009 09:55 pm)
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I love the group Switchblade Symphony. Two of my favorite songs from them are Wicked and Gutter Glitter. I decided to make the SN wickedglitter and it has stuck hehe.
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( Feb. 23rd, 2009 09:06 pm)
funny pictures of cats with captions
more animals

Just thought that was funny.

Sinus headache of doom. Ugh.

I am not looking forward to chemo this week. I have to take that Oxaliplatin again and hope I don't have the cold side effects. I had a little unpleasantness after the first dose on week one. Well I won't worry about it till Thursday.

I need to play megamillions tomorrow, the jackpot is like 174 million.

How many of you are in for a week of Vegas luxury if I win?
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( Feb. 20th, 2009 01:26 pm)
Patrick's mom felt really bad about Brittane stealing my shit, she offered to replace the money and brought me some donuts and some chic fil a for breakfast this morning. Locks were placed on the door this morning. It is a very sturdy lock with key of course so I can lock it when I am out of the house and Patrick is at work. The wood around the door is very clean and no scratches, so if she does attempt to try to get into the lock, she will leave visable marks and scratches on the pristine white paint, and if she tries to jimmy the lock it will show the scratches because its a polished silver color. I have no doubt she'll see this as some glorious challenge to beat the system and try to get in. Regena's husband said if she breaks down the door trying to get in he'll come over and put her out himself. Regena's husband lives in another house but helps pay the bills and comes over every week to see how Regena is doing. He also calls her and texts her everyday. He can't stay here because he can't stand the way Brittane treats Regena. At their old house, he slapped the shit outta Brittane one day when she was talking shit and he told Regena he couldn't live under the same roof with her daughter or he'd end up in jail for kicking her ass. I can see why now, as I myself a very passive person have been angered myself to the point of attacking that bitch.

We are going to leave brittane home alone, with locked doors and go to the mall in a few. Regena's husband left the strike plates off the door, said it will make it even harder if someone tried to get in. He said it would probably take a professional burgler or locksmith to open the doors, the locks were expensive.

Regena's husband Bryant treats me just like a daughter. He gave me 100$ for my birthday...he gave me 100$ after I got out of the hospital. He found out about Brittane stealing the shit from me and he came right away to put the locks on the doors and he just handed me 100$ for what brittane stole from me, even though I told him she only took 23$. So I got back 4 times what I lost. Good karma does happen people.

Its hard to force myself to be mean to someone. I feel its in my best interests to try not to be nice to her anymore. It's gonna be hard, despite all the shitty things, I get to feeling sorry for her after I slight her so many times after I get pissed off. I have to make it stick though. I will force myself to remember the money she has stolen and things she has taken and said before I think about getting her a damn thing. At the moment I feel that if she were on fire I don;'t think I would even spit on her to help.

I am gonna go take some nausea meds and head out. I will have fun!
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( Feb. 19th, 2009 10:00 pm)
Before I went in the hospital, or maybe it was after, I can't remember, I had about 20$ worth of quarters in my lil change bucket. Since the hospital of course, my outings have been limited and In the past two months I can say for sure I have not been to a coinstar. I have been adding quite a few handfuls of change in the past few weeks, Patrick contributing at times as well. I know just today I put 96 cents in I got back from the store. Well, I figure, I'll count the quarters to see how much I have! I figured I'd have at least 30in quarters, 40 in change all together. I start counting quarters and notice relatively quickly my amount of quarters is lacking. I count out 7$ in quarters and then am immediately upset. Someone has been stealing my change. Only one person in the house steals.

Even after my RAGE attack in december, I decided around christmas I would be civil. After the whole cancer thing, I was just worn out and too tired to be angry at anyone so I kind of just wiped the slate clean and was just nice in general. Just today I bought that bitch a snickers icecream bar, and yesterday I bought her lunch. AND THIS BITCH IS COMING IN ME AND PATRICK'S ROOM AND STEALING. A leopard can't change its spots I guess.

I'm at wits end. Seriously. Her mom will yell at her, but this shit is a wash and repeat cycle. Nothing ever sticks, nothing ever REALLY happens. End result this time? Me and Patrick have to put a fuckin' lock on the bedroom door I'm thinking. Last time she stole from me Regena was pretty non chalaunt about the situation, yelled at brittane and then she was like, well tasha she's stolen from me too, you will just have to hide your shit, sad to say.

I have a headache of doom, I'm too spent from my chemo today to deal with being mad about this shit.
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( Feb. 16th, 2009 02:47 pm)
Still feeling yucky. Just took mom to the airport an hour ago. Her plane should have just left.

I took her to the mall, out to eat twice, to a few jewelry outlets and we had a nice time. It was difficult to go the places we wanted cuz everything was so packed because it was valentine's day weekend. I told her next time she comes to visit we'll have her come during the week so we can go all the places we want and not have to worry about the crowds.

My digestive system is acting funny, trying to balance the effects of chemo with trying to take my iron supplements to prevent anemia. And then of all things, last night started PMS time so any nausea or dizzy spells from the chemo is coupled with PMS syndromes and I am just miserable. I am glad it didn't happen till the night before my mom was leavin or else I wouldn't have been able to manage to go anywhere friday or saturday.

I learned more about Patrick's direct tv thing, its going to go till April, its a trial run, he may still get laid off after that. It all depends on how the test project goes. I hope it goes well so he can get the insurance and sign me up. We'll see. In the meantime, I'll have to get Cobra after I get laid off.

Which leads me to....
You all know I have been bitching about how expensive Cobra is going to be for me to maintain after the job lays me off. Well that beautiful stimulus plan congress just passed has something in there where till the end of the year, the government is gonna pick up 65% of cobra costs ( THANK YOU JESUS )
So even if my employer was paying like 80% of what the insurance was, and I'm paying 40$ every 2 weeks from my paychecks, I know that won't have to pay like 400$ so that's great. Just as long as it lasts till I get my treatment finished I'm happy with it.

this is all I can muster up the energy to write right now I'm so spent.
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( Feb. 13th, 2009 10:27 am)
I woke up at 6 am to wake Patrick up for work, I felt like I was hung over. I rolled over and slept till 10 and now I am feeling much better.

My mom will be here today, her flight gets in around 1:40. I am happy about that. We're gonna take her out to eat at a resteraunt called the Black Eyed Pea, I've only heard about it and everyone says the food is delicious. It's southern homestyle cooking. I hope they make good mashed potatoes.

I met a lady having chemo yesterday on the same regiment I'm taking, she's so happy and cheerful and she's been on the chemo 6 weeks already and looks great. She has rectal cancer though, not colon. She said I'd get used to the meds and not to worry too much. She also says she isn't losing any hair, but then again she's also on some steroids because of her type of cancer. She made me feel a little better, she's got 259k in cancer bills, so I'm not even a 5th of where she is lol She looked to be in her late 40's. She was originally from australia, I loved her accent. We both had the same surgeon and are seeing the same oncologist in the clinic ( because there are 3 diff ones ) She's like "Ah'n our dooctors FABULOUS"
I told Patrick I wanted to ask her to say "'Ello Gov'na!" Like the rice krispie commercials LOL...Patrick was like "well you'll be going there awhile and if she's on her first cycle, you'll be seeing her again, its bound to happen."

Oh...some good news to combat all the bad that has been going on. Patrick is one of the top 80 agents on the seniority list at our place of employment. Our site has been offered a contract from Direct TV, the 80 senior agents are going to be offered this job to work from home, pay is like 13.50 an hour or something. Training starts next week and he'll be training all day 8 am to 5 pm. He talked to me first cuz he wanted my support on this and I said hell yes, I'll collect the unemployment and he'll still be working and that will be awesome. I need to talk with my insurance company because when enrollment of benefits come up again and Patrick can enroll for insurance, I am going to ask since its the same company can he add me. Maybe I can keep on with my benefits if we get on the same plan. I wonder if he adds me as a spouse under the same plan I have, even if I'm already with them, will they tell me pre-existing conditions apply? I don't see how they would be able to, even if the policy is switching to his name If I have an existing account with them, i'm just continuing coverage under the same company. I'll figure it out eventually. The good news is if anything decides to reoccur in my body, I'll be on top of it early because i'll be getting frequent checkups and hopefully won't have to go through all this crap again.

I told you guys I was hanging by a thread, the turn around of events is a blessing. I am hoping I can ride on smooth waters for a little while, It's amazing I haven't completely broken down in the past month. I can tell you I probably have plenty more grey hairs to show for it though.

If you don't see me post till Monday, I'll be spending time with my mom =)

Love you guys <3
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( Feb. 12th, 2009 05:37 pm)
They sprayed this numbing agent over my port so that when they stuck me it didn't hurt. chemo went well, after I finished however I was sweating and having hotflashes. The doctor said this was normal. I was doing well for awhile, but after i came home and ate I started feeling kinda nautious. I took both my nausea meds and I am feeling better. I have the "blahness crap" feeling right now. You know how you feel like shit right before you get sick, a headache that isn't a full on headache and just the "ick" feeling? Yeah that is how I feel right now. At least I had an appetite after chemo. I spoke with [livejournal.com profile] ker_thwap When I got back from chemo

WickedGlitter: I made it through chemo wooo
ker-thwap: yay!
WickedGlitter: i'm having hot flashes and sweating I feel like what I would assume menopause would feel like lol
WickedGlitter: doctor said it was normal though
WickedGlitter: talked to him before I left
WickedGlitter: the drug companies cater breakfast and lunch somedays, they did both today, fish tacos and cookies and all sorts of stuff for lunch, breakfast had egg and ham burritos...
WickedGlitter: sometimes chains like Black Eyed Pea come in and cater too and the drug companies pick up the tab
WickedGlitter: I feel its kinda ya know, vulture like of em but at the same time hey free food

I feel sick but things were not as bad as I thought. They give nausea meds before they start chemo, barfing as a result of chemo they said is actually kinda an old myth because now they have such wonderful nausea meds. I may not be barfy but I still do feel like yuck.