wickedglitter | My center.

I wrote about it briefly in Facebook status, but I thought I would post here since I'm rambling this evening. Lately ( especially after my last chemo treatment ) when I get nautious or a really bad thought in my head in reguards to chemo I clear my head and focus on a thought to make the nausea and bad thoughts pass. When my mom was here we went to karaoke at a bar and grill place called Fox and the Hound. I had a piece of chocolate cake there drizzled with hot fudge, it was so good! That piece of cake has become my "center" when I feel sick to my stomach or overcome with anxiety. There are other things that bring me inner peace like the thought of the smell of rain on a soft breeze, or the crisp smell of air when you know winter has arrived, but because of my love for chocolate, I can smell/imagine the taste of the cake and chocolate brings you the blissful comfort.
I wish I had some more profound kind of center like some tall japanese mountain and cherry blossoms or some shit ( well maybe I would if I had ever been to Japan but I haven't been ) But my yummy chocolate cake with hot fudge is helping me cope. Viva la Chocolate!

I am gonna take my mp3 player with me to chemo this week. I was so broken down last week I am gonna need extra encouragement prayers and good vibes from everyone. If you wanna dedicate me a song, leave the artist and song title in a comment and I'll add it to my playlist. Then you'll be with me in spirit!

Love you guys, Thank you for all your love and support throughout my tough times.

My center.

:o